Unpredictable

Testing testing one two three....
Hmmm.... This is my very first time to post my blogger by using English.
Ahaha! Well, I just want to improve my English by writing my blog by using English.
Sorry for the Grammar and vocabs' error.
I am not a banana girl. =P
I will write my blog by using Chinese too as it is my main language... hee

Everyone like hopes. Me too.
BUT, I scared to have a hope, sometimes.
If I were over hoping, I scared to be hurt.
By the lovely, wonderfully hope that I wished.
Just like you have been dropped into the hell suddenly when you thought you will be in the paradise, enjoying with the angels.
However, when the dreams come true, no one can describe the happiness and the excitement you will have.

I got the news that I have been accepted by the University of WenZao at Taiwan on 1st April 2014.
Yeahh, Happy April Fool. ==
After that, we have been told to wait for the approval letter at home.
As the time fly day by day and until now the letter still havent reach my home, I started to worry about it.
Although I had booked the flight ticket, the anxiety came to me as I have received no letter from the University.
Waiting makes worries.
As there is too much changes before it has been confirmed and happened.

See the EXO's comeback.
Who will know that the ferry incident will be happened?
The ppl on the ferry thought they will be reached safely. But they cant.
Who will know that this incident has bring the death?
They might have their dreams that wished to be come true in someday but the death ends it.
Who will know that the comeback plan will be postponed until the unknown date?
Every fans thought they will be comeback in the time that the Sment planned including the Exo members.
The other artist, singer, the Korea's President and all of the Korean too have been affected by the incident.
What we can do now is PRAY for the Korea and the victims.
May God bless every one of them.

What I wanted to say is,
we cant predict every thing in the future.
The only choice we have is,
just walk on by the leading of God.
He will give us the grace, the mercy that we have not expected to.

Yes, I trust.

忐忑

四月 可以说是很多期待的一个月。
EXO 回归乐坛
步步惊情就快开播
世界版我们结婚了 第二季也快播了

最让我不知所措的都不是这些  是
留台结果出来了。
原本公布日期是在2/4/14
我原本想在那天做好心理准备后才去看结果的
结果 说巧不巧 结果就在愚人节那天提前放榜了。
突然会想有人跟我说 “愚人节快乐！”

当时的我还在无聊的刷手机 看更新
突然 曼蒂小姐就Whatsapp我 问我知道已经放榜了吗
那时的我 真的是从床上弹起来呢！
他说我被某个大学录取了 但是他不知道那间大学
我立马和他讨了网址 结果一直下载不到榜单
那种感觉真的就像热锅上的蚂蚁一样急！
只好让佳佳把榜单的file send给我
在茫茫名字中 我始终找不到我的名字
最后是佳佳告诉我 我被文藻外语大学录取了。

知道这个结果后，我只小小的开心了一下
但随后一堆想法开始涌入我的头脑。
开心的是 我有被大学录取 不是侨大先修班
不开心的是 文藻并非我的第一志愿
其实说实在我是应该感到知足的
但是就是满足不了 总是想要最好的。
私欲 贪念就是这么可怕 不知足。

想着是不是要降转侨大呢？
还是看看其他地方的学校？
但是我不想再花多一年的时间在先修班 我之所以念高三 就是想省去念先修班的时间和金钱
和台湾相比 其他地方的学校对我来讲 负担实在很大 考量到家里经济没有那么好
这是不是就是我唯一的选择？

后来思考了很久 突然想到 Tofu
就去询问一下他关于文藻大学的消息
我原本想 如果连他这个高雄本地人都不知道文藻
那我真的会疯掉！

好啦 结果他真的知道这学校 还说这学校是很好的私立
全台唯一外语大学
好吧 这其实只让我有一点点的安全感而已 ><
然后又问了一些我想要知道的东西
还真感谢他愿意而且还这么有耐心的回答我 ==
我知道我是个闲人可以秒回 =P
打扰到的话就真的很抱歉啊啊啊

最后开始觉得这事已经被拍桌定案
但是头脑还是没有闲下来
还是担心
担心自己真的能够在外地重新开始？
身体的健康也在担心的范围里面 而且占了蛮大的部分
想要勇敢的迈开脚步 但是一直踏不出来
可能还需要一些时间还说服自己？
只能每天祷告求上帝赐我有足够的勇气来面对 承担

虽然渐渐能看见前面的路 但是还是对末端的黑暗而感到忐忑
希望今晚可以睡好 头脑不要再那么兴奋 想个没完
Cheers! All is WELL.